Where do I even begin? Most times I feel the luckiest person in the world, building a business, pursuing my passion & being creative while raising our family.
I get to feel proud of myself achieving goals outside of motherhood. Enjoying the big memories and small moments with my family while juggling my work life around what they need. Other times I question everything I do! The hours can be long and sometimes lonely, filled with lots of self doubt but it is all worth it for every second of freedom to change the routine if I need to. Thats what suits me, right now.
When I started Paper Tree we had one little lady and everything started like a whirlwind. We had notions of opening our own shop and building our website! Our web developer went bust (we lost a huge amount of money for us at that time) and I found out I was pregnant with our little boy – 2 hours after we signed the lease for the shop! We opened our shop but never really got it to its full potential, I struggled to juggle it all! (and that’s ok) I worked through postnatal depression, learned to step back a little, worry a little less and heal!
On the lead up to our wedding we found out we were expecting our third little rascal, another girl. Its only at this point I really looked at my priorities, both family and business. I decided to close the shop when she arrived and take a step back from Paper Tree just working on orders but not pushing or growing it beyond what I could handle outside of my foggy baby brain!
Slowly but surely the fog lifted, we have been making new products, learning new ways to grow Paper Tree and I have that fire back in my belly again! Some days the kids need me more, other days the business needs me more. Some days I achieve everything I wanted to do, other days the house is a mess, nobody got dressed and the laptop stayed closed. I realised that the elusive “balance” everyone talks about doesn’t exist, for us anyway! Life, business & babies is more like a giant Rubiks cube that never has all the colours aligned again but still works perfectly! That is where this stage of life is, that is where we are and I learned that is where I am happiest, within the chaos of it all.